Week 5 - Midterms - Imposter Syndrome

I'm tired, so very tired. 

This week has been a struggle, not only learning new material, but also figuring out how to be a student again. Making and keeping a homework schedule, balancing school and trying to be husband and father all at the same time. So far it seems to be working.

I've been dealing with Imposter Syndrome quite a bit recently, my brain is trying to convince me this is a bad idea and that I would be much better off if I just got my job back. Apparently IS is common amongst non-traditional students and others making huge mid-life changes. My brother-in-law had some great advice for me, reminding me that I am where I am supposed to be and that age has nothing to do with anything. 

I have one exam in Film Music History left and I'm doing that today. I'm pretty happy with my grades, 5 A's and 1 B+ (89.75%, a quarter point shy of A-). I wanted to be hurt at first, then I decided that's not bad considering I haven't been in an academic setting for 25 years. I'll take it!

It's been a week of stress and breakthroughs, both academically and personally. The growth I experience in school is transferring directly to my personal life as well. Breakthrough is exhausting.

I was 'forced' to watch 'The Pink Panther' twice last week, it was torture but I survived. Watching this movie again with my new perception is like seeing it for the first time. One new thing I noticed is how Mancini used the lack of music to support the comedy. Peter sellers is a physical comedy genius, and does it all while playing the straight man as well. Edwards and Mancini new what they had in Sellers and instead of mucking up scenes with music, they let Sellers carry the comedic emotion on his own, ad it worked brilliantly. 

I'll be watching this week's movie, 'In old Blood', music by Quincy Jones, later today. I've never seen this movie, I'll need to watch it multiple times to catch everything I'm supposed to notice. Interesting note, the 1996 television remake was scored by my school's founder and director, Hummie Mann.